Melting down again!

I just want to scream and freak out, but what good does that do? There has got to be somebody out there that can help me weed through this crap and help make the right decisions. I'm just drained and tapped out. I'm getting scared, not sure of what though...losing my mind? All I know is I am so thankful for my dog right now, because she is probably about the only thing keeping me together right now. I can't just sit and do nothing, and I don't know what else I can do to help myself today. Doing nothing will be the fastest means to the end. I think this may be the closest I have been to a pity party, but I'm really not feeling sorry for myself...just lost and more lost again.