Saturday, July 29, 2006 I hate being lonely!

Saturday, July 29, 2006 I hate being lonely!


Current mood: lonely

Lonely sucks! I hate it...and the beauty part is I'm a loner, and I like to be alone. So I can do what I gotta do for me..maybe a bit selfish. I will give you the shirt off my back though if I think it will help you...provided I'm not just enabling your BS. I have few close friends, and loads of aquaintances. I am a people person, yet most people don't turn me on enough to become close to them. My phone has never rang off the hook, but once in awhile it would be nice. My GF is woosing out on me today...just kidding PD, her grandson is with her so ya know how it goes. The few people I would call all are currently attached, so I feel like a 3rd wheel. So I guess I am going riding solo again, and maybe I'll meet someone interesting today. The odds aren't real good though. I think I am very intimidating to alot of people, and I don't know why, or how not to be. I think I have managed to put up this huge wall around me over the years, and I don't know how to get it lowered. Anyone that I would want to talk to...I'm either a chicken-shit sissy la-la, or else they turn out to be complete assholes. I try not to judge people, so therefore I will talk to most anyone that takes the time to approach me. Most of the time they are not very interesting though, so that's as far as it gets. All I want is a good partner in crime that is on the same wavelength as I...is that too much to ask?