Is it the meds or me?

Hello all! Today is Wed. and I should be sitting in a chemo chair right now. I am not, as today was the only day to do any training with Carrie and Hope. So we have a training in about an hour, and I will go to chemo tomorrow. Yay, with my regular oncologist!

Not feeling to shabby today. My back is killing me. I can't imagine it is my new bed already, though it may be due to too much time in bed or not sitting right in the computer chair...or not doing enough exercise to stretch my back out. OK, it's not killing me either, but it doesn't feel nice. I don't usually need to take pain meds. I have taken a lot of Tylenol the last 4 days it seems. Seems to go hand in hand with when I get Gemzar now. That seems to have changed over the last couple of months. I don't feel entirely shitty, just not great. Just a little achy, chilly and off. Not like the Taxol made me feel though. It's just faint enough that it always makes me question- is it chemo or am I just being a baby? I hate that! Seems like I have done a lot of that through this journey- is it the meds, or is it me?

OK, change of plans! WRTT just called. Carrie was wanting to know how Hope is doing on her long leash. I think that she would be satisfied with our performance. So, I think that we just skipped a class. We won't meet Carrie today, but we will go to the ranch next week. There we will work more on our "leave its". Whoo-hoo for Hope!

Off to my 2nd treatment of my 5th regiment

That sounds crazy, how did I get to 5 different kinds of chemo in a year and a half? Who would have thought? I have also just become aware of the fact that vanilla yogurt with frozen blueberries on top, tastes WAY better the blueberry yogurt. And you all know why I am eating blueberries and yogurt...antioxidants and probiotics.
  So I'm back, my apologies for the lack of update. I have just been just so tired...emotionally, physically and chemically? Referring to the part of chemo that makes me tired, versus just flat out overdoing it. The good news, is the Docetaxol is out of my system, to be never heard from again. My nose stopped driving me crazy about 2 weeks ago, so I can quit walking around picking it. My fingers are getting back to feeling like normal, so I guess I could walk around picking my nose if I wanted to. Did I sound like that was the worst of it 3 weeks ago, because suddenly that is all I remember. Oh, and food has been tasting right again too.
  Onto the nitty gritty, as I know that's why my millions of readers are here today...to get the update that I should have given a week ago, right? So I had a CT scan last Wed, before I got my scheduled dose of Docetaxol. As I suspected, I did not get my scheduled dose of Docetaxol. In fact I got myself booted off the study, and will never take any of the Taxol family again. I got booted from the study because the Docetaxol is acting like fertilizer to my chest mass. CT showed that mass has grown 73% since my last ct, less then 2 months ago. That sucks! So, last dose of Docetaxol was 3 weeks prior, and my blood work looked good. Doc was able to start me on my new regiment that day, which now consists of Cisplatin, and Gemzar- which I will take once a week now.
  H says that she is sorry, but my chemo options will not get any easier from here on out. I can appreciated the honesty, but I don't quite get it. If chemos are spaced out differently, so you body has time to recover, then wouldn't the ones with 2 week gaps be harsher then weekly chemos? Also, so far...my 2 Docetaxols have been much harsher on me then my 1 combo dose, (we'll call it C/G for easy). Even the side effects on the drug sheet look easier. They are really concerned about my blood count, and my liver function this trip around. Maybe it means that we have serious problems it either of those start causing me problems. The painful pain in the ass side effects before were just that pain in the ass, not serious. On my list to ask today!
OK, I'm signing off here. I had a wonderful Sunday with my GF, and I want to write about that later, so I can share some pics of me and my Pink Ladies!